My apologies for being such a slacker. Turns out being a grown-up infringes on my blog-time. That and I have made some big decisions/changes!
1. I need time off
Camp Savage was amazing…for those who made it that way. If I was in my right mind, I would’ve only remembered the phenomenal and inspiring people I met, the supportive group of coaches who truly care, that I won the dance-off and 3 months of free training (woo-hoo!), that I can push my body beyond my mind limits (and I will be ok!), and that Mama Savage knows her sh*t.
Instead, I moped and cried when faced with the fact that I need to fix some things with my body, namely a possible thyroid condition.
My previous doctor diagnosed me with minor hypothyroidism and prescribed me a small dose of levox-o-something. I refused to take it knowing that I would be on it for life. I didn’t research the condition, I thought I could fix my weight issue with diet and exercise and everything would cure itself. Well, those of you who are smarter than me know that, generally, you can’t.
My coaches wanted me to have bloodwork done for all of the T’s and to report back before they move forward with prepping me for any show. I fell apart after that and, frankly, I’m embarrassed. I was ready to compete and make all of this craziness worth the effort, but I was shot down with no direction. In perspective, there are worse things in life than being told “check with your doctor”. Some of my teammates suffer from tragedies and cancer. They move forward with grace and good attitudes.
My bloodwork, thankfully, showed my thyroid levels in the normal range. All of my numbers (cholesterol, etc.) were good across the board in fact. I was thrilled. I also learned that I needed to stop. My mind was in too-fragile of a state to continue with contest prep. Is it off the table for the future? No, but I won’t keeping trying to push a square peg in to a round hole.
2. Having Sex Helps with Weight-Loss…Until You Get Pregnant
Hubs and I are working on getting pregnant! I’m excited about it, I’m not one of those people who try to keep it from everyone until the last minute. Hell, I’ll take advice! Positions, food, time, whatever! We’re having fun with it.
Knowing that I’ll probably gain 50 pounds once it DOES happen, I’m trying to lose excess what and detoxify my body as much as I can to provide a good place for a baby to hang-out for 9 months. I’m going organic as much as possible (thank you ALDI for your new organic selection!), drinking IsaLean nutrition shakes and working out. In fact, Hubs just put the finishing touches on our home gym: it’s fully-functional baby!
3. I Need to Live
I felt like I was constantly busy, yet accomplishing nothing. I spend 2 hours commuting every day. If I hit the gym I wouldn’t be home until 8pm. One night per week is spent teaching PiYo class. I was working late all of the time because I didn’t want to be “that guy” whose chair was spinning at 5pm. I missed time with Hubs and I know he missed time with me too. We just bought a new house and I was never home to enjoy (or clean!) it.
I resolved to spend more time at home (cue the home gym). I decided to quit teaching exercise classes for now. I also make a better effort to leave work on-time and spend my days more productively. I can sense a shift at home – I’m happier and less frazzled. I even did dishes on a weeknight! LOL
4. I Love Hot Yoga
I’m stressed. I rarely even had headaches up until a few months ago, and I’ve since had my first migraine…and then 2 more. I worried about everything from work to finances to parenthood to body image. While I can’t deny that I’m a worrier with a Type A personality, I can do my best to manage it. I took my first few hot yoga classes and I LOVE it! I don’t feel the need to go balls-to-the-wall like I normally do when teaching because I’m there to ‘be’, if that makes sense. I’m challenged and, for once, I can enjoy something that is my own. My usual self would want to become a yogi and share this with others, but why? Because I’m good at it? I’m good at a ton of things but I need to learn that I don’t need to prove it to anyone but myself. Self love and pride: that is something I’m working on. To just ‘be’ and practice non-reaction. To take things as they come and adapt.
So, as I move along in my journey to health and happiness I’ll try to remember to keep you posted, maybe my craziness will help someone else:)